I’ve never found it incredibly easy to make new friends. I think that stems from two main reasons: my anxiety, and the fact that I’m just a bit of a loner by nature. I’m too much of a shy person to just go up to someone and start a conversation, it’s just not something I would do and I admire anyone who is actually able to do that. Now when I say I’m a bit of a loner by nature, I mean that I would much rather be at home on the sofa on a Friday night instead of being out drinking with people from work. I actually did a whole post on that topic which you can find here. It doesn’t mean I don’t want friends, but instead almost that I don’t really know what it’s like to have a lot of friends.
I think my problem is that I’ve never really had that close knit group of friends. You know, the group of girls that you’ve known since the first year of high school – you’ve grown up together, you know each other better than you know yourselves. I never had that growing up. Sure I had a group of friends in high school but to me it felt like we were only really “friends” because we were together for seven hours a day, five days a week and we just kind of had to get on. After high school I ended up not staying in touch with any of them and I was fine with that. Looking back I realised that a lot of the friendships I had at that time were actually toxic so… byeeee.